There was once a time.

This year has me thinking alot about time. It seems I never have enough of it and it is getting less and less all of the time. My life seems to be flying past me quicker than I can even take in. It sometimes feels like I am watching a movie and seeing the clips quickly flip past my eyes, but it’s not a movie, it’s my life whizzing past me at lightning speed.

Time is a funny thing, it is unlike other things in this world as you can’t buy it, borrow it, loan it, keep it, rent it, save it, or give it way and once it’s gone you can never get it back. Time will change you, but you can’t change it.

 It seems the older I get the quicker it goes and I find myself always trying to hold onto moments for as long as I can because once they are gone, they are truly gone.  Life starts off with the first few minutes of your day, then an hour and then several hours, those hours turn into days, which then turn into years and before you know it, its 10 years later and when you reflect, you think when the hell did that happen? Where did the last 10 years just go?

I often think about my children and reflect about when they were small and I sometimes ponder, when did they grow into these young adults, were they not just 2 and 6 years old. When I really think back to their childhood I can’t imagine where the time went, when did they become 9 and then 13 and then 16, 20, when did that happen, now they are going to be 23 and 27, god I feel like time stole these little beings from me, when did this happen?  Sometimes I feel cheated by time. I feel sad that that time has passed and I can never go back to that time, this would be true of other times in my life as well, times that I can never go back to, because they too have passed.

Time in the dictionary is described as this: A nonspatial continuum in which events occur in apparently irreversible succession from the past through the present to the future.

It is also defined as One's lifetime.

Some days I feel like I need to hold onto time with all my might so that it does not slip away, but no matter how hard I try ,no matter how tight my grasp, time slips away as always. I guess there really is something to this “ Live in the moment” idea, because if you don’t live in every possible moment, relish in it, recognize it and stay in it  as long as you can,  before you can blink your eyes it will be gone, and once it is gone it will be gone forever.